wild heart


Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I get emotional at the weirdest things these days. And most of it has to do with this girl growing up so fast. Yesterday we went on a mommy/daughter date to the National Zoo. While the purpose of going was so Evelyn could get "up close and personal" with the animals, it seemed that she had other interests of pushing the stroller around the whole time and chasing birds - two things we didn't have to do at the zoo. I got kinda tired of chasing her, so from a far I watched her venture off on her own {within reasonable distance of course}. She went farther than I thought she would, but before long, she looked up at the crowd that she was swimming in, tearfully looked around until she spotted my familiar face, and came running towards me with arms out stretched. As she got closer she started signing "mama" over and over again. As I picked her up she gave me a big hug, nestled into my shoulder, and we walked off together to see the gorillas. My mind was running of thoughts of wonderment that me, 25 year-old-inexperienced-me could be this little girl's everything. I am her safety. I am her happy place. I am her mama. Although we were just two small people in a crowded zoo that day, there was nothing more wild going on than the emotions of my heart. This mothering thing, I tell ya, is the best gig around.

22 comments:

  1. this post tore at my heart! I could feel it swelling as I continued to read...I absolutely cannot wait for those times when I can be Elyse's everything!

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  2. what a wonderful moment you had at the zoo. i had a similar experience at the market the other day when my little girl stella needed me to hold her. she is not very clingy and she got scared. i felt honored to be the one to scoop her up and make her feel safe. very touching post :)

    xo, amanda

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  3. simple and sweet experiences like this really are EVERYTHING! You're right, it's the best!

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  4. How sweet. There's nothing better than knowing you already have what it takes to be her everything..no experience required!

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  5. just a sweet post. You and your daughter are adorable! And gorgeous photos :)

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  6. This is what I call a heartfull post! LOVE IT

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  7. Kendra:) This is so sweet. She is growing up so quick! Where are you guys living?

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  8. I love this post :) Your job as a mama is the world's most precious job!

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  9. adorable. did you teach your daughter how to sign?

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  10. So sweet! I live for those moments. :)

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  11. So sweet! I live for those moments. :)

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  12. Beautifully written. Best gig, indeed!

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  13. So sweet! What a special moment, and that you now have it recorded to one day reflect upon!

    A friend of mine happened to see my button on your side bar and said she knew you from Utah...Megan (McBride) Hamilton? I think she said from a singles ward? Anyway, she had just lovely things to say about you! :)

    -Kristen
    The Mrs. and The Momma

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  14. It's a great gig! The best! I have to ask..did you make her headband? I am in love with it!!

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  15. I know. We need moments like that more often, or at least I do. Tonight Clark was riding his bike down the sidewalk for the first time. He was wearing a pink helmet and having the time of his life. Instead of getting excited about it, I was so frustrated because he kept pushing back on the brakes and I'd have to get him started again. It took us a half hour to go a block! I kept telling myself to enjoy this moment, that soon he'd be a teenager riding around by himself... but it was hard!
    I'm penitent tonight, though. And I take comfort in the fact that I want to be better, even at the same moment when I'm feeling my worst.
    I love being a mother more than I ever ever thought I could. It's the best thing that could have happened to me.

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  16. this brought a lump to my thorat--i can't wait to be that to a little person.

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  17. Man. Motherhood seems amazing. I am so looking forward to it...someday...in the distant future.

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  18. You're such an amazing mama.

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  19. I love this post :) I've been wanting to take Guinevere to the National Zoo, and I have some time off next week...I think we should definitely go! And motherhood is definitely the best thing ever :)

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  20. What a tender post. <3 My Little B is definitley a Little Runner ;) and while more often than not he is definitely running away when I snatch him up for a big so-glad-you're-safe-kiss, there are times when he runs back to me, and my heart melts. You are absolutely Evelyn's everything...and you're going to be everything to this baby of yours that'll be here so soon...such a SWEET time of life. xoxo

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