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Friday, April 20, 2012

My life is supercalafragalisticexpialadoshus. It really is. Jared and I have said countless times how blessed we are and we don't deserve it. Yesterday 2 little things and 1 big thing went differently than we had hoped. And that's ok, because it didn't hurt us in any way other than we'll have to make alternative plans for the future. Yesterday evening I thought I would have been more emotional, but I was at peace with everything and too busy counting all my blessings to even consider this disappointment as a set back. I felt the same this morning when I woke up. Then 1pm rolled around and I was so tired from chasing Evelyn since 6 am, hungry, staring at my messy home, and thinking about how all I really want is Jared to have a weekend home with us and then I cried. And I felt so selfish for crying.

My husband is a hard worker. He's going to grad school, juggling work and an internship and has been gone from 6am to 8pm and sometimes 10:30pm every night this week. If there's anyone who should be wanting a break it should be him, not me. But I'm the one begging him to take a break. Ever since we've been married he's always worked Saturdays. EVERY Saturday. This just seems like a crime to me but obviously he works for Ev and me. So how selfish is it for me to sob about never taking a vaca and crossing things off on our "places to go" list. We'll get out of this student life someday. Until then I need to grow a stronger backbone.

Moral of the story: Life is always good. Thank God for all your blessings. And cry every now and then too :)

Oh yeah, and as the cherry on top, my phone cracked on the pavement yesterday. I'm thinking about just dropping the smartphone gig so I'm not constantly tied to the internet, but I don't think I could live without my camera.
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23 comments:

  1. i think there are a lot of people out there who are feeling a lot like how you mention in this post. i mean, when it rains it pours, doesn't it? but i think it's important to note that usually when it "pours" it does in ALL aspects of life, not just in the difficult moments, but the beautiful and wonderful ones as well. :) i hope you have a happy weekend with your little family!

    xo, amanda

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  2. Aw, my husband works the same sort of hours (except for Saturdays - whew!) and it does get me down some days, especially when our little Dot learns to do something new and the husband has to wait all week to see it! Glad you're looking on the bright side of things - difficult, but necessary! x

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  3. Sometimes you just need a good cry! I've been on the verge of tears many times this week. And I just blogged about how hard it is to focus on positives sometimes, but you just have to keep plugging along.

    Hope you have a good weekend!

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  4. I know how you feel because I've been there - grad school/interns are the tough parts but it DOES get better. He won't always be working Saturdays and with a job comes more normal hours - but until then, yes, crying does help now and again. :)

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  5. My husband works every saturday, too. Its tough because I want him to spend more time with us, but obviously he is only working saturdays to pay the bills. It's not like it's his choice to be away from us! I feel like I complain about it more than him, when I should be taking the support role and encouraging him! Hang in there:)

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  6. My husband works every Saturday, too. His usual work day is 10:00 am to at least 10:00 pm, so I never see him. It makes me so sad, not only because I miss him, but becaue I feel like he is missing out on time with our daughter and memories we could be making. I'm so grateful that he enjoys his work and it pays the bills... but it is really hard for me.

    Hang in there! As for the smart phone, I ditched mine and haven't missed it... except for the camera. :(

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  7. We all have those moments! My hubs is in school too and I am constantly guilty of complaing to him how busy *I* am. It sounds like you have a great attitude though, and you are right, blessings are always more! Hope your weekend is goes great!

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  8. awe sweet mama, its okay to have a good cry, especially when your pregnant! I couldn't go a day with out crying but I am a sap and cry at commercials and youtube videos.

    Scott works crazy overtime all the time, thats why I have been trying to find mama groups (and I've gone to some) in the area so I can feel more "busy" and also have Judah get his wiggles out and wear himself out playing with other kids. I hope this is a short season for us both, where we can have our hubbies around us a bit more

    xoxo

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  9. A cry is always okay, and it's good. You seem to have a wonderful outlook, and I'm convinced- the past has proven it to be true to me- that outlook really does make all the difference. I do hear ya with the student life thing though. Our recent trip was the first we've taken in 8 years, and it was so foreign to us it almost felt entirely selfish, although I know it's not. I'm sorry though for what ever setbacks you did have. Have a wonderful weekend!

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  10. Aww you just cry whenever you need to. As much as I respect your husband for working as hard as he does for you guys, I can totally understand wanting the family time. I was without my husband for a month due to him moving before us to start his new job and TOTALLY relate on needing the help. Hopefully thing swill calm down soon =)

    - Sarah
    agirlintransit.blogspot.com

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  11. it's very frustrating to have the man of the house gone so much. right now my husband is working at a job he hates, and he's putting in 12 and 13 hour days, plus the occasional saturday. we both hate it. we get through by reminding ourselves that it won't always be this way.

    as for the smart phone, i had one, too, and ditched it. it wasn't so hard, except for random times when i wish i had a map at my finger-tips. i also miss the camera, but it just encourages me to get out my actual camera more often.

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  12. Praying for some breaks and smiles to come your way!

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  13. i feel you girl i feel you. that’s when we go to target and buy ourselves a little treatsy! xoxo

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  14. I'm sorry your having a ruff day, let it out girl!!! That's the best way to clear your head. I'm sorry about your phone that blows. I hope the sun starts to come out for you and you both have brighter days.

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  15. I needed to read this and feel of your optimism. I am in a super similar place in life and I don't have nearly the good attitude you do. Thanks for being so sweet and cheerful!

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  16. Dear Kendra, it's not selfish my dear at all. He works hard as do you. Student life is difficult and you also are in the throws of having your family at its youngest.

    I'm glad you can cry sometimes and feel alright about it, it's a great way to help burdens become just a little lighter. It is just a season that will come to its close too I'm sure sooner than later and you'll look back and think "how has it been so long, since those times."

    I like your attitude though for sure. Most of the time I really try to stay positive for me my children and my husband. I mostly tell my husband we have great days, (despite kinks here and there throughout the day) but there are some days when I just say, "it was hard, annoying, and I got angry at the kids." It's life and it happens.

    You're doing great, you are blessed and it's nice to follow and rejoice in your blessings with you. Take good care,

    Shauna

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  17. We have cheap pre-paid cell phones (TracPhone) that we love. We pay about $20 every three months per phone. We also use Ooma for our home phone, so we get unlimited local and long distance calls for $3/month. While I think it would be cool to have a smart phone, I've never had one, so it's easy to go without one. And I kind of love that I can't check e-mail and everything else in the world when I'm out. I love only being able to be reached by a handful of people (the ones we give our cell numbers to) when I'm out and then being able to chat for a long time without having to worry about pricey phone bills when I'm home.

    Sorry you had a rough time though. I totally know how that goes.

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  18. I feel like this a lot--that I need to grow a backbone and get on with things as I am so lucky.

    Sometimes though it is hard isn't it. The reasons and the thankful lists don't have the same effect as they should and then I cry and feel bad but it lets it out so I can move on.

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  19. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I'm so happy you did, so that way I could discover your blog! It's so lovely and your little girl is adorable! And don't worry crying is a good catharsis! Sometimes I purposely watch sad movies so I can have a nice cry! You are blessed to have such a lovely family!

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  20. I work every Saturday & so does my hubs. its alot but it's our life right now.
    And I shattered my phone like that last July. I was so mad since it wasn't the first time I'd done it. I used that darn shattered phone til March when it really shattered. Got a new phone and it's already cracked. Boo.

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  21. If I were in your shoes, I would absolutely feel like crying sometimes too. We're all entitled to little emotional breakdowns, and it doesn't mean you're any less grateful for the wonderful things in your life! It just means you're human <3

    I hope that you get to spend some quality time with your husband very soon!

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  22. Ken! Can I tell you that reading your blog always makes me jealous. You're life seems so adventurous and you're such an entrepreneur. My husband is out of town every week! It kinda makes me mad sometimes. I think it's just the way it goes though. Hope everything is awesome!

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