a nightmare


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

I finally figured out a way where Evelyn will let me hold her and rock her. The downside is it involves her having a nightmare. Last Friday night she screamed out "mama! mama!" through her tears at about 11pm. I ran in and swooped her up, lovingly shushing her and putting her head on my shoulder. I could feel her body relax as she calmed down with my embrace and within seconds she was back to the serenity of her sleep. I could have stood there and rocked her forever. The moment seemed so rare that I took the time to remember everything, burning the moment into my heart. I couldn't believe how long she was, how much she had grown. Of course I hold her every day, but I hadn't held her and craddled her in the silence of the night in probably a year. She is not a cuddler and never sits still for longer than a second. So to have her in my arms again in such a fragile dependent state reminded me that this growing girl will always be my baby. Whether she's 23 months or 23 years, I hope whenever she is scared she will cry out "mama" and know that I will race to hold her.

I still can't believe in 6 weeks she'll be two years old! Mind blower!

22 comments:

  1. Ok. You're making me tear up and I don't even have a child!!! So so precious.

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  2. This is wonderfully precious!

    Sarah
    sweetnessoflaughter.blogspot.com

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  3. Awww, so hard to see/hear them like that, but it's comforting to know that they call for their mama's in those times.

    When my little guy wakes up in the morning, I hear him on the monitor saying, mama, mama, mum, mum, MOM-MEEEEEE! (I'm a little slow in the mornings).

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  4. Aw poor thing...it's always alarming hearing them yell in the middle of the night.

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  5. awwww, Judah is the same way he used to fall asleep in my arms all the time (had to at nap times when he was a baby) but he grew out of it. At first I thought "freedom!" but now I miss it and the only times he allows me to rock him to sleep is when he doesn't feel well.

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  6. so so sweet! I cherish snuggling my baby girl!

    Tiffany

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  7. Sounds like a really tender experience. I'm glad you've found a way where you can hold her and rock her to sleep!

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  8. Poor little boo having a nightmare. I love that feeling knowing mommy will make things better.

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  9. The true heart of a mother :) What a sweet moment!!

    Brittany

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  10. This is beautiful! Love your writing.
    thehartungs.blogspot.ca

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  11. oh the little dear! way to come to her rescue mama! and i have to agree because a hug from my mama still gives me comfort :)

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  12. awe! :( I'm glad you could capture that moment and savor it. :)
    -wHiT

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  13. Oh! Maile sometimes wakes before I myself go to bed, crying for me. It both breaks and fills my heart hearing her cry for me. As you say, Kendra, my deepest desire is that she always, always knows that I will be there for her -- whatever the cause of her tears.

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  14. Aw this is sweet! Sad that she had a nightmare but lucky you getting to hold her!

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  15. Oh my goodness, so sweet!
    www.teandbaby.com

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  16. she will cuddle with you again. just too busy at 23 months. my almost 4 and 5 year old will cuddle all day long!

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  17. Awww she is too cute! Love your blog!!

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  18. evelyn & warner are so precious! i'm glad i stumbled upon your blog tonight.
    floralandfudge

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  19. Your daughter is just the cutest! Such a lovely little story. xo

    http://www.jenventure.blogspot.co.uk

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  20. oh that is so special. i wish they'd stay cuddle-able forever.

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